Welcome to my website and blog! 

Hi, my name is Nina, and I am an alcoholic. 

I struggled with alcohol addiction for seventeen years and during that time I never wanted to admit that I had a problem. So, whenever I say that sentence in front of others, it’s a big  deal for me. 

Seventeen years is a very long time to live a lie, and yet, that’s exactly what I did. I tried my best to convince others that I was well when I wasn’t. However, the biggest lie was the one I would always tell myself before I drank: This time it will be different. I won’t drink so much.

I tried to convince myself that I would eventually control my drinking, and when I finally realized that wasn’t going to happen, I just did my best to hide it. In the 12-step programs we are taught that we are only as sick as our secrets, and in my opinion, that’s one of the most important lessons we learn. 

As people in recovery, we must learn to be honest with ourselves and others. Both things are vital if we want to get sober and stay sober. Addicts tend to live a life of secrecy and deception, so it’s imperative that we end that destructive cycle.

I was forty-four years old when I finally sought help for my alcoholism, and my new life began by telling people the truth.

“There’s something freeing about being at the end of your rope because, in a way, you just don’t care anymore. You don’t care how you appear or what people think. At least, that’s what it did for me. It was easy to be brutally honest about my brokenness because I could no longer hide it. “

From Broken to Butterfly – Page 91

Every journey of recovery starts with admitting that we have a problem. Honesty is our first step in sobriety.

Don’t be afraid to take the first step, and don’t forget to ask God for help.

Blessings,

Nina